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My brain works like the wind.

Not consistent.

Sometimes productive, sometimes destructive.

My attention span is so short and it angers me.

Goddamn the ADHD.

I will never be smart enough.

My eyes will never seen an A on my report card.

Maybe some R’s for retard.

I feel like a walking learning disability.

I just want to be smart enough so I can’t disappoint my parents and myself.

My report cards are just blurry reflections of what I can do!

So can I get an A for effort?

Or an A for the tears I’ve shed it textbooks?

Or at least a B for the frustration?

…school really depresses me and me like the D’s and F’s I get.



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May 6, 2010

Even when I’m happy I hurt

And when I’m smiling it doesn’t mean I don’t want to cry.

Without the antidepressents I fear the worst

I’m sick of trying to die.

Can someone teach me how to live?

And believe

in love, trust and hope.

And even my dreams.

And I just hope this life isn’t as bad as it seems.

Because it seems lonely.

And yes, I know we are born alone and die alone but does the middle have to bw so lonely too?

I just want people to love me, don’t you?

And maybe someone to hold me through

the night, the storms, the crashing waves.

Please don’t leave me, I need you to stay.

All I wan’t is to be more than okay.



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wonder-riot said: i wish i could like & reblog your description. you should post it! :D

aww thanks :). ha maybe i will!



dispose-the-adipose said: You're not a waste of space. You are strong, beautiful, and lovely.

Thanks :)